Alvida to Jamnagar ! (GET 2012)

16th May 2013 - My last day at RIL jamnagar. It has been 10 months , 10 amazing months. It is said that to reach you destination in life , you may take different paths. "All roads lead to Rome" they say . It may be true.

So you tread on the road, incurring many emotions- victory, disappointment, heart breaks, heart flutters, anger, slump; YOU NEED TO BRAVE IT ALL AND MOVE ON.

Sometimes you may incur many a people- some who teach you things, some who make your life sweet, some who irritate you and some of every kind. YOU BECOME ATTACHED BY LOVE OR HATE... IN ANY CASE U MOVE ON !

Sometimes you may incur many a places- dark & shady, silent but serene, happening & non-happening , amazing but dull, places of every kind. YOU SHOULD ENJOY IT TO THE MAX. FOR EVERY PLACE HAS A STORY TO TELL ! AND FINALLY YOU WILL MOVE ON !

I am giving no fancy speech. Just the truth that life would move on and you may or may not reach the destination you pined for. So enjoy the dusty roads, rough winds, soothing breeze, hard rains, blazing sun, heart warming chocolates, calorific-food, the unexpected friend, the known opponent, the voices that oppose you and make you strong  the hands which help and bolster you...

This journey is much more to me for the attainment of the goal will be all peace . The excitement is now. And the last 10 months with you people have been very exciting,passionate, fun, happy & mind-boggling for me.  I have met some amazing people and made friends for life :) If only I could capture the past months on a roll of film and play it again ! But , they say memories last for very long and perhaps they will. So with happy emotions, I bid farewell to all of you !

Thankyou for your kindness, animosity, encouragement,hostility, humility and comradeship. It has made me strong ! One last thing to say, " Make your life good! " Cheers !

All in a Day's Work

The other day I heard a talk from a certain Mr. AB about how passionate he was about his life. This made me think about an average human. Here's how an average human spends his 24 hours of the day-
8 hours sleep
3 hours personal time
3 hours socialising ( includes food n timepass)
10 hours of work

So we know that a major part of our day, our month,our year ,our life is spent WORKING !!

We have an opinion, a choice in everything we do, be it to buy clothes, build a home, choosing a holiday destination but in work ? Do we really decide what , where and how we want to work ? Do we choose our work ? People might say work is a necessity . True, but for what ? A necessity to earn a living - food , shelter and ? Is only physical well being a necessity ? What about mental well being and peace ?

It is a hard-proven fact that most battles are fought and won on a mental level. In fact even physical disabilities are overcome by mental perseverance. Humankind places the mind over everything else. But at the end of the day, one does not WORK for its well-being ! It's ironical !

The society has conditioned us to work for our existence not for our living. For, if we were working for our living , would'nt we approach each day with zest and bubbling exuberance? If we were working for our living, each day our mind would buzz with an amazing expectancy for yet another beautiful day of mind-boggling deadlines, deals and a heap of mounting work which we love to do !

At the end of the day one should remember, "The essence of existence is living." LIVE LIFE KING SIZE!

The Warrior & Saint

A few days back I came across an article called ' 22 Things Happy people do differently' . It made me conscious of the clout of negative feelings that prevail and make me unhappy. Each day a lot of people annoy me, irritate me and make me want to rebuke them severely. I feel wronged by people's words and actions. And more than anything, the episode playing in my head repetitively burns a hole in my heart and makes me want to scream at the top of my voice. The event might have been small, but its repercussions in my head lead to aborrence of the subject and person.

I believe it is the tendency of human mind to take revenge, to oppose and fight contradictions. We smirk at people who take insults in their stride without a hitch. In fact, they are in peace with it. I noticed this character in one of my friends. We had a severe argument and the next moment she was talking like nothing had happened. Had I been there in her place, I would have expected a  sincere apology after ignoring the person for a while. In the process, I would have burnt myself and ruined my mood only. It dawned upon me that in this clash between 'revenge' and 'forgiveness' nobody will get affected but myself. So flush the thoughts which evoke suffering . Tell yourself - 'I wont let anybody torment me anymore'.

 If you want to give people a  piece of your mind, do so - dont hesitate .When you are with a group of people, be  a warrior- Take your chances, enjoy and press your luck, live passionately and mercilessly bring down your opponents.  When in solitude, be a saint - forgive and forget, nobody matters but for inner peace which will lead to upliftment towards glory and God. In either case, refrain from attachment towards people and their thoughts . Attachment towards these, will lead to detachment from self and personal goals. Be diligent and choose !

Deciding Undeciding

Everyday we are faced with many situations, problems and challenges where we need to decide in order to move forward with our life. Irrespective of the success or failure of the decision, one moves ahead with life.

It is a bright monday morning heralding the beginning of a new week. I got up by 6 A.M at the sound of the wailing alarm. My mind was awake but my body refused to budge. It was a classic mind vs body clash. I really wanted to kick- off this beautiful day with a hard-core workout. I am lackadaisical , yet I manage to sit upright on the bed. I want to wear my shoes, but my body wants to bathe in the cool morning aura of the warm sun. I lie on my bed again. The clash is not yet over. I feel like I have been pushed onto a batlle ground where I need to decide the winner between two passionate,hard-headed opponents. Everytime I got up , I again decided to sleep. And everytime sleep, I feel the necessity to get up and get going. In the end, I did not hit the gym but I said to myself ,if not dawn at least dusk. However,I lost a good hour's sleep oscillating between two decisions.

As I drove to office that day, it dawned upon me that no matter what happens, decisions are not life-making or breaking. It matters how you prove your decision right ! One should not let the exercise of making a  decision hamper one's hour, day or life ! Nothing is perfect, only your attitude will make it so !

 

That's all I want...

As I write now, I am stepping out of my comfort zone of ignorance and simplicity into the constantly aggravating zone of reality and complexity.

A number of issues are plaguing my mind yet again. I am worried about my future.  I am always worried about how I’’ handle a given situation or handle a challenge. My latest worry is what will I research in masters? When I find no answer, I worry whether I have chosen the wrong career? Then, I become hopeess and lose all interest in all that I do! There was a time when I genuinely enjoyed studying everything, even PP plant. But when the concepts become too difficult to understand, I just lose all hope instead of trying harder. And my outlook becomes so negative.

Then another worry, what if I don’t get the visa? Perhaps I should leave the job after getting it? But, do I really want to continue with the job ? Frankly the answer is neither yes nor no. The job has really not got on my nerves till now that I am desperate to leave it. If I really want to study it, I can adjust. Will there be not anything in this world which I would love to do absolutely. Perhaps there will not be. You develop a sense of belonging and clarity over a period. That is there.

So, looking at the larger picture, I believe I should give the best to what  I have in hand. Study well and research. Try to become master of a trade. Try to love doing it. Give my best and stop worrying abt. things I cannot control and work on things I can. With hard work one can move mountains. And if I don’t get this, then I do not want to return to reliance and waste precious time of life in things that benefits none. My primary purpose to make a career was not for money but to do something of value, something substantial. Working on an innovative technology, developing  a creative idea, perhaps, making  a difference in this process. I want to do masters because I want to ADD VALUE  to myself. I want to do things which can make me better in various facets. Life is too short to worry about the trivialities of what if not ??! If things do not happen in a certain way, its for the good. It perhaps takes you closer to what you really want to do. So stop brooding start acting for a new beginning!

Perspectives - Try new and the world will be different !

14^th March 2013

I feel in peace with myself today. I feel that no matter what happens tomorrow, it will be for the good and I’ll find my way towards what I seek. A lot of things have changed since yesterday, mainly my perspective. I met Nithya after a long time yesterday. We spoke about a lot of things. She told me many stories – of Shankar, radhika, sai sir and hers too. I will remember these for a long time , I believe. And more than that, I ll remember the lesson all of this taught me. That do not always udge people from ur point of view. Step out and try to think from their perspective. If you cannot, remember that everyone has their own story. One can make people realise their mistake, or just forgive them for it . Life is too small to hold grudges and end relations over trivial issues. One should know that one has flaws too.

I had an issue with nithya, with radhika and so many others. I blamed them, made myself the drama queen. And just gave a fancy lecture and left them. I did not give anybody a second chance. I never tried to stick with them, understand or reform them. I did the easiest thing of leaving them. I have no right to act like the wronged . I have total control of who and how people can affect me ? I love sympathising with myself, that’s the truth.

Sid was right. Even if you don’t like a person, don’t go all out and hate them. You really don’t know what they are going through. And, never expect a person to behave the way you want. Life does not revolve around you. When things peeve you, step out of your skin, look at the problem in a detached state and then evaluate your stand.

Meeting Nitya made me realise one more thing we forget in the onslaught of the moving world. Do what you love and live life king size. One should not get intimidated by whats bigger and better. What another is doing ! One should do that which gives one pleasure and excitement. Insecurity arises when you are afraid of losing a title, a possession. But when you do something you love, it will stay with you. Like a true lover. Like life to a living soul.

To Be or Not To Be

My last birthday inspired a few realisations in me about friends and life. And more importantly birthdays!

Through our life, we make 'n' friends, whose degree of attachment with you vary with time and situations.A new environment introduces you to new people. In a strange environment, strangers become companions.You stay with them, slowly finding your feet in the crowd. As time passes, you become more confident, you become comfortable in your skin, you start following your interests, and perhaps new found dreams. You gradually start losing touch with those companions whom you referred to as friends. You don't realise it, but before you know they are just some other acquaintances.The silence with them is awkward, more so in the common parties. The jolly parties with those friends have turned into glum parties with acquaintances. But you go with the act because 'it would be rude to come out of the group', 'you'll become a lone soul', 'you'll have not many to turn to during need' and 'you'll not have a crowd to party with at the end  of the day'.From my university days, this clash of  'to be or not to be' with the so called stranger-friend crowd has boggled me . Some days , I would think its nice to be around people, on others , I would just prefer being alone. But, my general tendency was to just listen to my heart and not act. People thought of me as arrogant perhaps, or even egoistic and was censured. But , I am what I am; I could not bear falsehood in relations.

I accept now, that a lot of things I fought for with my friends were highly irrational. But, I am glad that my behavior prompted only the best to stay with me. Rather, only those who could bear with me ;) !! Now, I understand that something need not be wrong just because I don't approve of it. I try to blend in, float with the crowd. But I cannot change my nature- the general dislike for feigning friendship still exists. I do not act. But I do practise cordial behavior with fellow mates. That is the least even I would have expected from a person like me.

This sudden outburst is the result of my birthday. I am a part of a huge group with whom I did  not wish to spend my birthday.So, I decided to take a smaller group of amicable people to an expensive restaurant.At the end of the day, I felt bad. I had not laughed heartily, I had not received any surprises and worst of all, I had to also pay for the night. And in that group was perhaps one of my best friend till now.

This left me with  a few questions cum realisations-
Birthdays are special even without fancy surprises and gifts. Thank god for your life and live each day with jest. There's no need for a special occasion called birthday.

Appreciate a person for what they are, dont expect them to fit a definition. Too much of expectations leads to downfall of good relations.

Don't expect surprises on your birthday even from your bestie ;)

People remember you if they want to. There's no need of fancy surprises/hand-made cards. Because nobody fucking cares to do anything special for you. Those who do, will do so without expectation :)

So love and give to people out of love , not out of expectations ! You' ll  be at peace :)